Love this song! Lyrics are emosh...
I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are [x11])
Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!
Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like BOOM,
Just go and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good luck, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...
No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
yeah yeah yeah
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Tuesday, 19 April 2011
Ties...
I currently blog to you from my bed, where I am suffering from i-cant-sleep-itis for the first time in months, and absolutely hating it! My mind just won't stop working overtime, so I thought it would be interesting to blog a couple of these thoughts! Btw I am blogging from my ipod touch, so please forgive me for any typos or formatting errors!
So thought number one, and the title thought of this post is ties. I increasingly wonder what in my life is tying me down to London (aside from my love for it of course). Aside from my mum and older siblings, I have no blood related family in London. I have no best friend, no boyfriend, no career as of yet, and it fills me with dread that my life could continue like this forever! I was just thinking that if I upped and left London I would only really miss my mum! So then this brought on the thought of, 'where would I go?'. Aside from moving to Nigeria to be with my best friends (my sisters) which isn't plausible, there is no point in moving anywhere else. Because believe me, we moved around a lot when I was younger, and no matter how easy they make it look on TV, it is not so easy to be the new person in town. And so, this led me to conclude that somehow, it is betterto try and make ties in my city, than put myself out in the big bad world again!
Thought number two was all about getting a teaching job. Every so often, a fear creeps up on me that I will not get a job, and this leads me into a frenzy looking for jobs! Only there are none, and job hunting is EXTREMELY boring! Anyway, this one I leave in the lords hands, and just pray that he guides me into the perfect job!
Anyway, I believe that may be enough of the ramblings of a sleep deprived 20something year old!
Ciao x
So thought number one, and the title thought of this post is ties. I increasingly wonder what in my life is tying me down to London (aside from my love for it of course). Aside from my mum and older siblings, I have no blood related family in London. I have no best friend, no boyfriend, no career as of yet, and it fills me with dread that my life could continue like this forever! I was just thinking that if I upped and left London I would only really miss my mum! So then this brought on the thought of, 'where would I go?'. Aside from moving to Nigeria to be with my best friends (my sisters) which isn't plausible, there is no point in moving anywhere else. Because believe me, we moved around a lot when I was younger, and no matter how easy they make it look on TV, it is not so easy to be the new person in town. And so, this led me to conclude that somehow, it is betterto try and make ties in my city, than put myself out in the big bad world again!
Thought number two was all about getting a teaching job. Every so often, a fear creeps up on me that I will not get a job, and this leads me into a frenzy looking for jobs! Only there are none, and job hunting is EXTREMELY boring! Anyway, this one I leave in the lords hands, and just pray that he guides me into the perfect job!
Anyway, I believe that may be enough of the ramblings of a sleep deprived 20something year old!
Ciao x
Monday, 18 April 2011
Back to blogging: Nigeria
Due to a very, very boring time of late, I have decided to start blogging again. Let's see if I actually stick to it this time!
As you all know (or are about to find out) a significant part of my genetic makeup is Nigerian. Therefore what happens in that country is very pertinent in my life.
At the moment, due to Goodluck Jonathan winning the presidential elections (yes that is our president's name, not a nickname, his actual name), the muslims/northerners are angry at the christians/southerners? (I think I've got that right). So these muslims/northerners have resorted to killing innocent christians/northerners. Makes perfect sense of course.
Anywho, it upset me that my beautiful baby sisters have to live in this place and still go about there day to day lives while all this is going on, one of them can't leave her campus because its too dangerous!
I hope that we can all keep Nigeria in our prays, pray for it to stop being such a messed up country! I love Nigeria with all my heart, it's a beautiful country that is so underrated, and its no wonder when the people that live there cannot just accept that politics will be politics and move on!
Monday, 15 November 2010
Countdown!
Those of you who have Blackberry's and are my BBM contacts, will know I've been counting down to a number of exciting things that are happening in the near future. These are:
19/11/2010 - Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1
I am sooooooooooooooo excited for this! Like tremendously, stupendously excited! I'm actually re-reading the book now for preparation!
27/11/2010 - Paris
Yes guys, I am going to Paris for the first time in my life this very month! Sooo very exciting, celebrating my two year anniversary with Paul, and it's going to be great! Pictures galore!
10/12/2010 - Secret Event??
Oooh I wonder what it could be?! I'll let you know about it on the 11th when it's over but I think this is the most exciting day of my life this year lol!
13/12/2010 - Placement
It sounds boring, but its the best part of my course! For one week only this year, I get to go into a school and teach children! Its going to be so much fun!
25/12/2010 - CHRISTMAS
Needs no explanation! It's the festive season!!!!
So yeah, should be quite an exciting two months, and I just hope that EVERYTHING works out and goes really well!
xoxo
Hello Blog!
So, its been awhile! I haven't been motivated enough to blog, and twitter has become like a mini blogger for me so I just haven't been on! But because I love writing, (and because I want to say I write a blog on my CV) I have decide to begin writing again, even if it's a short story, a poem, or something that applies to my life, at least twice a month I will sit down and I will blog. So stay tuned for 'The Rollercoaster of Life' :)! x
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
Rev Run
Today's tweet has the potential of being very short and sweet. For those of you who are on twitter you need to follow RevRenWisdom. And these are the reasons why...
'ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS forgive! Man! That annoys ur ememies!'
'Dont be a know it all! Be open! Use ur mind like a parachute.. If u dont keep it open. U crash!!'
'wanna test ur memory, try to remember what u was worryin about 1 yr ago today... worryin is about as useful as tryin to crazzy glue a handle to a snow ball!'
'an ounce of encouragement when somone's down is worth more than a ton of praise when they're up!'
These are just some of his tweets. He has words of wisdom, and sometimes just logging into twitter and reading one of his tweets calms me. Even if these particular ones don't apply to you or whatever, he tweets about everything, even 'french fries'.
ADD REVRUNWISDOM ON TWITTER!!!
http://twitter.com/RevRunWisdom
Add me on Twitter
http://twitter.com/rae_rae_o
'ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS forgive! Man! That annoys ur ememies!'
'Dont be a know it all! Be open! Use ur mind like a parachute.. If u dont keep it open. U crash!!'
'wanna test ur memory, try to remember what u was worryin about 1 yr ago today... worryin is about as useful as tryin to crazzy glue a handle to a snow ball!'
'an ounce of encouragement when somone's down is worth more than a ton of praise when they're up!'
These are just some of his tweets. He has words of wisdom, and sometimes just logging into twitter and reading one of his tweets calms me. Even if these particular ones don't apply to you or whatever, he tweets about everything, even 'french fries'.
http://twitter.com/RevRunWisdom
Add me on Twitter
http://twitter.com/rae_rae_o
Monday, 5 October 2009
'Friends'
It's very funny, I watched this video a while ago that basically said, if you want to know who your true friends are then disappear. Now what this means is that you delete all social networking sites, don't call anybody and don't go out.
Now we get to the 'funny' bit. Recently, my phone broke and my laptop broke and so I was unable to contact anyone. So I though about trying this 'disappearing' thing and deleted my facebook account but kept my Twitter account just in case.
The point of this experiment was to see how many people would actually try and contact you when you 'disappeared'. So at some point during the week I managed to get a phone and put my sim card in it to see how many people had text or called me and I had none. Meanwhile the only people who actually asked my boyfriend where I'd gone where his Godbrothers.
But I was prepared to forget that no one seemed to care about me because sometimes people can be busy.
However, recently it seems to me that people are SELF CENTERED. And I am starting to feel hate towards the very people who I was so happy to be friends with in the first place.
If I went through every year of school (that I remember) and told you who I was friends with, the names would change so much you wouldn't be able to keep count.
Looks like Uni is the same.
Now we get to the 'funny' bit. Recently, my phone broke and my laptop broke and so I was unable to contact anyone. So I though about trying this 'disappearing' thing and deleted my facebook account but kept my Twitter account just in case.
The point of this experiment was to see how many people would actually try and contact you when you 'disappeared'. So at some point during the week I managed to get a phone and put my sim card in it to see how many people had text or called me and I had none. Meanwhile the only people who actually asked my boyfriend where I'd gone where his Godbrothers.
But I was prepared to forget that no one seemed to care about me because sometimes people can be busy.
However, recently it seems to me that people are SELF CENTERED. And I am starting to feel hate towards the very people who I was so happy to be friends with in the first place.
If I went through every year of school (that I remember) and told you who I was friends with, the names would change so much you wouldn't be able to keep count.
Looks like Uni is the same.
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