I currently blog to you from my bed, where I am suffering from i-cant-sleep-itis for the first time in months, and absolutely hating it! My mind just won't stop working overtime, so I thought it would be interesting to blog a couple of these thoughts! Btw I am blogging from my ipod touch, so please forgive me for any typos or formatting errors!
So thought number one, and the title thought of this post is ties. I increasingly wonder what in my life is tying me down to London (aside from my love for it of course). Aside from my mum and older siblings, I have no blood related family in London. I have no best friend, no boyfriend, no career as of yet, and it fills me with dread that my life could continue like this forever! I was just thinking that if I upped and left London I would only really miss my mum! So then this brought on the thought of, 'where would I go?'. Aside from moving to Nigeria to be with my best friends (my sisters) which isn't plausible, there is no point in moving anywhere else. Because believe me, we moved around a lot when I was younger, and no matter how easy they make it look on TV, it is not so easy to be the new person in town. And so, this led me to conclude that somehow, it is betterto try and make ties in my city, than put myself out in the big bad world again!
Thought number two was all about getting a teaching job. Every so often, a fear creeps up on me that I will not get a job, and this leads me into a frenzy looking for jobs! Only there are none, and job hunting is EXTREMELY boring! Anyway, this one I leave in the lords hands, and just pray that he guides me into the perfect job!
Anyway, I believe that may be enough of the ramblings of a sleep deprived 20something year old!
Ciao x
I'm in this SAME situation! And here was me thinking I was the only one. I'm unemployed atm and it is DEPRESSING because it feels like no one is hiring and you feel like a bum just doing nothing all day *sigh*. However, I do wanna move to the states (even though I have no family there ROFL)..its just a case of knowing how to do it I guess.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I think its great to just start afresh, ESPECIALLY at our age, this will be the only time we can make such radical and random decisions because we are still young and are still allowed to make mistakes...come 28/29, we gotta be settling down and stuff lmao so I say go for it!!
Also...what do you mean no boyfriend?! What happened with you guys?? :(
Ugh same I thought I was the only one! I know it is the only time, I really wana move to the states too but I would have to do a masters in education before I could teach there so it kinda doesn't make sense to go. I'm just sick of seeing the same faces...
ReplyDeleteAh we broke up like a month ago, wasn't working :( sad times x
Woman, you can definitely consider moving and you me and Bee can all live in the same city. Not Nigeria though but it still needs to be in Africa cos Africa got flavour and spice!
ReplyDeleteMaybe Ghana wit Bee...we'll live togeda or near each other, get jobs and be der for each other.
I'm rambling. Shit! This can be discussed privately! LOL