The Voice

http://m.youtube.com/index?desktop_uri=%2F&gl=GB#/watch?v=e5K7HGxVRcs

Watch and enjoy! Christina merks as per! Wifey for life :)

P.S if the link doesnt work, search for 'the voice crazy' on youtube :)

Down...

So you know when you make a decision after a long time thinking about it, and you know its right, but it hurts? Yeah that. I made a decision like that about a month ago, and today is just one of those days where I hate myself for that decision.

Obviously, every decision has a negative consequence, but in my case the negative is overshadowing the positive today.

So I'm just feeling low. That is all.

Ciao xo

False Promises

The title of this post is a bit dramatic, but I'm being to find certain types of statements really annoying. Why do people constantly say things they don't mean? (I am guilty of this too).

For instance, I have a friend who constantly writes on my wall saying 'we need to meet up', yet never makes a move nor is interested in making it happen. Why does she continue to do this? Why not just ignore me, after all we only really speak to like 20% of our facebook contacts!

Anyways keeping it short and sweet, there is absolutely no need to say something that you don't mean. End of.

Ciao x

Who you are by Jessie J

Love this song! Lyrics are emosh...


I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are [x11])

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like BOOM,
Just go and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good luck, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...

No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
yeah yeah yeah

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Ties...

I currently blog to you from my bed, where I am suffering from i-cant-sleep-itis for the first time in months, and absolutely hating it! My mind just won't stop working overtime, so I thought it would be interesting to blog a couple of these thoughts! Btw I am blogging from my ipod touch, so please forgive me for any typos or formatting errors!

So thought number one, and the title thought of this post is ties. I increasingly wonder what in my life is tying me down to London (aside from my love for it of course). Aside from my mum and older siblings, I have no blood related family in London. I have no best friend, no boyfriend, no career as of yet, and it fills me with dread that my life could continue like this forever! I was just thinking that if I upped and left London I would only really miss my mum! So then this brought on the thought of, 'where would I go?'. Aside from moving to Nigeria to be with my best friends (my sisters) which isn't plausible, there is no point in moving anywhere else. Because believe me, we moved around a lot when I was younger, and no matter how easy they make it look on TV, it is not so easy to be the new person in town. And so, this led me to conclude that somehow, it is betterto try and make ties in my city, than put myself out in the big bad world again!

Thought number two was all about getting a teaching job. Every so often, a fear creeps up on me that I will not get a job, and this leads me into a frenzy looking for jobs! Only there are none, and job hunting is EXTREMELY boring! Anyway, this one I leave in the lords hands, and just pray that he guides me into the perfect job!

Anyway, I believe that may be enough of the ramblings of a sleep deprived 20something year old!

Ciao x

Back to blogging: Nigeria

Due to a very, very boring time of late, I have decided to start blogging again. Let's see if I actually stick to it this time!

As you all know (or are about to find out) a significant part of my genetic makeup is Nigerian. Therefore what happens in that country is very pertinent in my life.

At the moment, due to Goodluck Jonathan winning the presidential elections (yes that is our president's name, not a nickname, his actual name), the muslims/northerners are angry at the christians/southerners? (I think I've got that right). So these muslims/northerners have resorted to killing innocent christians/northerners. Makes perfect sense of course.

Anywho, it upset me that my beautiful baby sisters have to live in this place and still go about there day to day lives while all this is going on, one of them can't leave her campus because its too dangerous!

I hope that we can all keep Nigeria in our prays, pray for it to stop being such a messed up country! I love Nigeria with all my heart, it's a beautiful country that is so underrated, and its no wonder when the people that live there cannot just accept that politics will be politics and move on!